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7 minutes ago, Admin said:

This is the thread where you cut the bulls***t and just admit who you really are.

I'll start.
 

 

I'm also someone who's obsessed with finding truth.

As a teenager I wasn't that interested in parties because people acted so shallow there. Went to the library to search for truth, mainly in philosphy.. Nietzsche, Camus, Plato, Hume, etc. Needless to say other teenagers saw me as a weirdo.

Nowadays I love Jung, but don't just blindly believe everything he said though. He sure was a deep thinker, but also just a human being.

 

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20 minutes ago, Ghostie said:

I don’t really have a solid sense of self. I’m probably a loser? But I do care about their people and want them to be safe and happy

Checked your profile and you're still young. As a young adult it's positive not to have a solid sense of self, because it means you're open to learn. That's way better than being arrogant and think you know it all better.

 

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1 hour ago, Danny Van Hecke said:

He sure was a deep thinker, but also just a human being.

I think I recently started to truly appreciate deep thought... escape from the madness...

Now I'm getting the urge to play Ghost of Tsushima... what with the meditation and being in touch with Earth yadda yadda.

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1 hour ago, Danny Van Hecke said:

Checked your profile and you're still young. As a young adult it's positive not to have a solid sense of self, because it means you're open to learn. That's way better than being arrogant and think you know it all better.

 

28 is young? Geez how long goes a sense of self take to grow? Lol 😂 

Definitely gonna check out the video you linked ^_^

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1 hour ago, Admin said:

I'm a person who has an excessive and possibly unhealthy focus on the truth. I deeply and utterly despise people who do not respect the truth as I do because I feel like they're living in a world that isn't real, and if life isn't real, the point of life ceases to exist and makes everything more meaningless.

I don't like it when people spread misinformation or lie. I do not like censorship. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

I get incredibly angry at people who are fine with doing horrible things to each other, like cheat, or try to ruin lives just because someone hurt your feelings. I deeply despise greed and people who only think in the short term, entirely focused on how they personally can benefit.

You and me both. We have that in common. My ex wife and a few girlfriends f*ucked around on me. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

I let people know about my anger, it consumes me, it becomes my identity and rules my daily thoughts.

I've been burned out by my anger for a long time now. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

My general life philosophy is, if you're not going to tell me who you really are, get the f*** out of my life. Unfortunately, because people I have kicked out often wind up doing all they can to hurt me/ruin my life, I find myself having to continue associating with people I would not have if I didn't feel like I was being held hostage - knowing the moment I kick them out, they'll also do everything they can to hurt me.

I'm very much the same way. I've had friends and an unfaithful wife use me financially and lie to me on a daily basis. If the next person wants to do that to me, I'd rather they moved on. I have nothing to offer. You've heard me go on in the threads that I'm more comfortable having acquaintances over friends. An acquaintance is someone I really don't have much of a relationship with. It's just someone I talk to in passing or have little to do with anyway. Even if I was their friend, I still wouldn't go out of my way to hang out with because I have a job, k*ids, and a girlfriend that consume my time. 

An acquaintance or a long time friend needs to understand & respect my boundaries. If they can't, then I quickly cut them out and go on with my life. I'm not going to lose sleep over it. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

I am a broken man constantly held at the mercy of frauds and criminals. I try to be creative and funny, but I always wind up remembering there is a gun to my head, and any immoral fake a***ole can make things as bad for me as they like, and I am powerless to change anything.

 

If god powers existed. I'd make them worship you as a prophet & give you all of their money & confess that they were all liars. Now that'd be hilarious. 

But really, those people are hypocrites using you as a scape goat for their problems. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

I am a broken man constantly held at the mercy of frauds and criminals. I try to be creative and funny, but I always wind up remembering there is a gun to my head, and any immoral fake a***ole can make things as bad for me as they like, and I am powerless to change anything.

That's how I felt after my best friend and my girlfriend dragged my name through the mud. They convinced all of my other friends that I was a psycho, woman b*eater, and a r*apist. No matter how hard I tried to talk to them. My words fell on deaf ears. They didn't start talking to me until almost 2 years later because they realized that they both lied. But by then. I had moved on and I felt betrayed by them. They abandoned me when I needed them the most. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

Everything is always fine until you reject someone, then suddenly, they act like they never liked you in the first place.

I found that out with a psycho girlfriend I had back in early 2020 that I broke up with. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

Why? Because that is how humans work.

It's humans that cause suffering and spread misery. Humans made religion and politics. Humans made up an imaginary being called "Lucifer" so they could cast all so they didn't have to accept responsibility for their actions. That's scapegoating. Religion kills more people than the food that you believe kills people. Islamist m*urder innocents in the name of Allah. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

I used to have a light shining in me, a glimmer of hope, but that is dead. I'm trapped in the darkness, consumed with hatred and mistrust for humans, and I've been emotionally, socially & mentally m**dered.

You have my condolences. It's not your fault. There are times when I felt very s*uicidal and just wanted to check out. But....I'm not going to give the scummy people that made me m*iserable that opportunity. I refuse to throw in the towel on my life. 

1 hour ago, Admin said:

Essentially, I'm just an angry ghost. Unfortunately, this is my reality, and I accept it. You must always accept your reality.

I accepted my reality a long time ago. I always hope for the best and prepare for the worst. While I feel very unhappy about my life at times. I look at those that have it much worse and that's how I cope. 

 

 

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I give most of my time to people I care about. Sometimes, people I don't personally know, which I feel like shows people that I may be naive, and have a tendency to be a bit of a doormat. At times it is true, and I do need to continue the process of self care, with time to heal. I can be mainly optimistic, but if I feel too overwhelmed, even though I do put my genuine foot forward to make things work well for others, I lack time to myself and it can backfire on my own wellbeing and I tend to bully myself. I'm currently working on that, now with no therapist at all. 

At times, due to past hurt that hasn't, and may not fully heal, I find it hard to verbally communicate my feelings in person, so I tend to put a positive spotlight on others in a way to avoid any negative emotion. 

I live in a place that for the majority, are just hateful towards specific types of people, and it upsets me for a variety of reasons. Some people look at me like I'm crazy when I do or try to speak up, others are ashamed of me for being part of a community or speaking up for others when something ignorant or just stupid is said. Im always willing to agree to disagree in a civil way, however I will not be sorry to fully disagree and speak up about who and what I am passionate about. (Though there are times verbally it can be difficult in a strange way, like I've said my emotions can get the best of me.)

I have goals, but they can easily be shattered. So, I'm acting on starting small, within reason, for others and myself. I know that yes, I'm flawed, and will always be, though I am trying my best in a variety of areas of my life that need improvement. I really want full balance in my life, and I'm motivated to keep up progress, no matter how small it may be.

💕 Much love to all of you speaking your truth.

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3 hours ago, Kaitlind said:

I consider myself a nice and caring person who gets along with everyone. Sure there have been people who made me mad but I typically keep my thoughts to myself as to not cause any arguments. When it comes to people I don't like, I do have mean thoughts. I could never wish harm on them though. I just mentally cuss them out lol. I feel like my mean side comes out when someone disrespects someone I care about because I'm protective over the ones I love. I don't really care if someone has a problem with me, just as long as they don't mess with my family/friends. I've even known people who talked about me behind my back, but I was still nice to their face. All I have to say is that I'm a kind person who doesn't like confrontation and doesn't want anyone to get hurt. I stay away from people I don't like because I want nothing to do with them.

 

2 hours ago, brittniisundae said:

I give most of my time to people I care about. Sometimes, people I don't personally know, which I feel like shows people that I may be naive, and have a tendency to be a bit of a doormat. At times it is true, and I do need to continue the process of self care, with time to heal. I can be mainly optimistic, but if I feel too overwhelmed, even though I do put my genuine foot forward to make things work well for others, I lack time to myself and it can backfire on my own wellbeing and I tend to bully myself. I'm currently working on that, now with no therapist at all. 

At times, due to past hurt that hasn't, and may not fully heal, I find it hard to verbally communicate my feelings in person, so I tend to put a positive spotlight on others in a way to avoid any negative emotion. 

I live in a place that for the majority, are just hateful towards specific types of people, and it upsets me for a variety of reasons. Some people look at me like I'm crazy when I do or try to speak up, others are ashamed of me for being part of a community or speaking up for others when something ignorant or just stupid is said. Im always willing to agree to disagree in a civil way, however I will not be sorry to fully disagree and speak up about who and what I am passionate about. (Though there are times verbally it can be difficult in a strange way, like I've said my emotions can get the best of me.)

I have goals, but they can easily be shattered. So, I'm acting on starting small, within reason, for others and myself. I know that yes, I'm flawed, and will always be, though I am trying my best in a variety of areas of my life that need improvement. I really want full balance in my life, and I'm motivated to keep up progress, no matter how small it may be.

💕 Much love to all of you speaking your truth.

You both are wonderful & amazing people. It's shameful how people have treated you. I hope you both get the good things you want. You deserve it. 

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I’m an anxious person with a broken inner ch*ld. I crave acceptance and understanding from people so bad. I have deep heartbreak and mommy issues. 
 

I have deep issues with my se*uality and I’m totally Imbalanced I crave the wrong attention and I don’t show my se*ual deviance's but it’s something I’ve always struggled with and pushed down because my past traumas. 

i want people so see the duality and be at peace with the cosmic balance because that’s what I want. 

I have deep routed anger I couldn't control because of the ab**e I’ve tolerated. I have issues with inner masculinity and aggressions. 
 

I had to calm myself down I can’t punch holes in my problems or run from the reality of this world. I’ve dedicated my self to abolish all suffering. 

Im in a constant battle to make sure I’m doing the right thing and never lie. 

Sometimes I have these impulse feeling to f*** my life up for what? I don't know cause I don't want to. I'm afraid of success it's something I've never had until now and it's scary.

As a k*d I lied to be heard and repeated everything I said. 
 

as an adult I know lies don’t bring attention. I know now if people want to listen to you they will lean into hear.

if I speak I will only hear what I already know. If I dont I may learn something. 
 

im at peace I don’t know everything and I want to hear everyone. 
 

I fear I'll be able to keep up positive mental health but I would d*e for what I believe in and I don't. 

I've been vulnerable here purely for connection and unity and I think that's great.

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34 minutes ago, Admin said:

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I think the amount of power people have solely due to having money is completely unethical. Under capitalism, businesses are all extremely undemocratic. I believe in complete social justice and equality for ALL, and I think with those three factors combined, along with my complete dissatisfaction with the concept of money, makes me a bit more left leaning than a capitalist or most socialists

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15 minutes ago, Admin said:

Social justice? As in give the cancel culture mob more power? Continue to have trial by public opinion?

justice and equality. Socially. As in, we need justice and equality throughout our society, not capped by someone's wealth or power. If politicians mandate stay at home orders over Christmas, and then have parties themselves, they need to be held accountable

20 minutes ago, Admin said:

 Continue to have trial by public opinion?

I think legal trials should always have a jury, and otherwise that people should always endeavor to collect and consider all the facts made public as objectively as possible

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15 hours ago, stevenenjoysmilk said:

I am Steven, and I enjoy milk

I'm also pretty much a communist now lol

Did you guys know that John Lennon’s song Imagine is basically a communist manifesto? (Even though he himself wasn’t a communist)He said that he wrote it in a way to sugarcoat the lyrics so it would be acceptable. 

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On 12/10/2021 at 11:18 PM, Admin said:

Social justice? As in give the cancel culture mob more power? Continue to have trial by public opinion?

That's always rigged to cause trouble. Witch Hunts don't result in justice ever. 

Remember that it ruined the lives of 3 teenage boys in West Memphis, Arkansas?

That witch hunt caused one of them to be subjected to capital punishment just because everyone decided they were guilty and the authorities never found physical, circumstantial, or demonstrative evidence linking them to the crime itself.

But that's okay. They arrested them, charged them, and convicted them any way. That wasn't justice at all. 

The community accused them of Satanism and Witchcraft. 

So imagine going to p*****n over superstitious bulls*hit and false eye witness accounts. Which pretty much happened.

 

 

The real m*urderer got away. While West Memphis blamed 3 innocent teenagers for a crime that they did not commit. They had no evidence and they did it anyway.

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I’m not really sure what to say about my self but I do know I made mistakes in my past too. I guess I’m not very Reliable but I’ll try my best to be... there’s times I want to be alone but other times I like company. I feel like I’m difficult when it come down to making decisions. The truth hurts but I rather face it than to pretend nothing is wrong. I am afraid that I might say the wrong things because I’m not good wording it out. I’m not perfect and I’m out of place. I guess I can say I’m lost and trying to move forward in life anyway. 

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