I have depression and bpd, i was on antidepressants, sleeping pills, xanax and antipsychotics. It helped me in some ways, i felt less pain and have less thoughts. But on the other hand it made me feel complitly d**d and empty and my suicidal thoughts became even worse. I attempted s******e few times every time when i was on med*cations. Im still on antidepressants and antipsychotics but in smaller doses, i also started smoking weed, and im better now. Its ironic how antidepressants can make your suicidal thoughts worse, they were really bad even though i felt less pain it was like a need, its confusing, but i know its not always the case.